Picture
This is the little story that didn’t go away.

So: a way long time ago, circa 1979, when I was a student at the University of Texas, I was seeing a girl named Susan, who had a roommate whose name I forget, who had a boyfriend whose name I forget. The boyfriend was a volunteer with a wildlife rescue organization, and he took care of injured and orphaned birds—primarily raptors. He’d come in and out carrying these birds around—a red-tailed hawk, a golden eagle. One day he had the eagle sitting on a tether in the backyard, and the eagle killed an old lady’s cat that chose the wrong time to wander by. I was totally pissed off—said that I’d kill the eagle if it killed my cat.

That’s the origin of the story. Bad eagle kills good cat. I carried the idea around with me for years, and then when I was writing my MA thesis I pulled it out and tried to do something with it. The end result was the basic draft of “Wildlife Rehabilitation.”

Where I live in Texas the hills level out and rise into the plains and the sky opens up to swallow everything. In the fall and winter fronts blow through, cold dark clouds and wind rattling the brush and pushing birds down from the north—most notably, great numbers of hawks and eagles. When I was a young man, people hated those birds. It was not an uncommon thing to see dead eagles and hawks strung up on fenceposts along our roads, shot dead and left to rot, a warning to all other varmints.  Crows and buzzards would drift by and pick at the carcasses, and most of the dead birds' feathers would float off into the brush, and finally, after a few months, by summertime, all you'd have left to see would be maybe a skeleton with one wing and a head, hanging there from a clawed foot like a grim vision of the future that awaits us all. It was something to see, all the dead birds hanging from fenceposts, but it's not so common anymore.  In fact, it's not something I had seen in years, or even thought of, until my cat—his name was Festus—was killed by my neighbor’s golden eagle.

And no one liked it. My fellow writers in workshop were dissatisfied with the ending and with what they saw as the sentimentality the story as a whole, and my thesis director thought the ending was absolutely dreadful. He thought the story sucked too much to go into my thesis, and it didn’t. I kept working on it, though, adding more and more, making it increasingly complicated and dense—one version actually cracks 50 pages, and has fun and weird scenes of drugs and sex and arson and kidnapping. I came up with at least four different endings. And I didn’t like any of the changes.

But I still believed in the basic story—no kidding, I liked it! I thought there was something there!—and I submitted it to a few journals, and was rejected, and then I presented it at the Western Literature Association conference in 2007.  Twister Marquiss of
Southwestern American Literature was there, and he liked it a lot, and offered to publish it, and so about a year later it came out. Other people liked it, too. “Wildlife Rehabilitation” was later chosen as an honorable mention for the anthology Best of the West, edited by Seth Horton.

So, in the end, with a lot of help, this story found an audience
….

 
 
Picture
A number of years ago I was working in the accounting office of a big law firm in downtown Austin, and one day, as I was getting out of my car in the park-and-ride parking lot, I saw a Polaroid photograph mashed into the damp gravel.  

An interesting photograph: a pair of young women—one slightly older than the other, but both young—hugging a pair of little boys.  They all look Hispanic.  One of the young women is wearing something resembling a red tutu.  I wondered: who are these people?

I took the picture with me to work, and posted it on the wall above my cube.  Later the tech guy came by my desk, sipping at his coffee, and he asked, “Who are they?”

“That’s my family,” I said.  

The tech guy looked shocked.  Then he said, “Wow, they’re beautiful.”

They are indeed.  And, by now, they really are my family.  I don’t know who they were then, or what was going when the shot was taken.  I don’t know what they were like, or what happened to them.  They’re forgotten—except by me.

I have these same sort of weird feelings when I look at other old photos.  I can burn hours going through online photo archives (these hours aren’t lost, by the way—my imagination is working the whole time, and that’s part of my job as a writer and a teacher).  The other day I was helping a friend look for pictures of cats to illustrate a book he’s doing of cat essays, and the afternoon passed with my eyes in the archive, looking at cats, but other things, too.  Pictures of the forgotten, mostly—people who existed at one time, but now don’t, and are forgotten despite images stuck away somewhere.

I love the little girl with the cat in the Dorothea Lange photo above.  Who is she—what’s she thinking?  Seems darn proud of that pretty cat.  And what’s with that kid peering out the window?  Who are these people—and what happened to them?  We’ll never know.  They’re forgotten.

The forgotten inhabit books, too, of course.  Years ago I went to a lecture given by Ian Frazier, who talked of doing research for his book Great Plains.  He said he’d go into a rare book collection at a university and look at the hundreds and hundreds of settler memoirs on the shelves, each one inhabited by a ghost who would leap out and grab him by the throat and say “Let me tell you about my life!”

The photos are like that, too.  Images of the forgotten who want—who demand!—to tell you about their lives.

My favorite archives:

The Shorpy Historic Photo Archive 

National Archives and Records Administration

Diane Keaton has put together some interesting books of photos she’s taken from archives, including Local News, Bill Woods’ Business, and Still Life.  In 2007, Larry McMurtry wrote an appreciation of Keaton’s work for the New York Review of Books, and he talks quite a bit about the concept of the forgotten....